I'm back!!!

Dear friends and family,

I'm back! (And definitely excited to be back). After five months of more learning, growing, messing up my life and coming to decisions, I am finally back to blogging. I've been wanting to for months, especially for my poor grandmother's sake (she loves reading my blog - sorry Grandma!!!), but I just knew I won't do it.

So the questions arises: Why ARE you writing then Courtney? The answer is simple - because it's time for me to be writing again. I'm taking written communication at a local technical college to help me improve my writing and to get me writing again. I finally came to the conclusion that it was time to move on in my life and pursue my dreams - all of which started with writing. It sounds simple, but what most people don't realize is that I have been scared to death of learning to write. I love journaling, blogging and writing letters, but I have had some really difficult past experiences with my attempts at structured writing. I let my dreams slide (this happened for two or three reasons - fear was one of them) and never pursued any of it further. Over "Christmas Break" (haha - I didn't have anything to break from... ) I was reading a book that Mom gave me for Christmas and I realized my fear and I realized that I had lost site of my passionate dreams (which I believe to be God given) for my future. Fear of many, many things had been holding me back and I didn't even know it!

I tried registaring for a course and found out they were all full. Thankfully, at the start of the semester some of them opened up and I was able to join a class mid week. I'm now doing a bit of "catch up" but I'm so excited to be moving forward. Today was my first day of working on my school and the old anguish threatened to resurface a number of times, but I took a deep breath, reminded myself of why I'm taking this class and pushed forward. I failed last time (last year) I tried - I let my frustrating over take me. I'm NOT GOING TO FAIL again. :) I spent much more time on my assignment then most people may have required and I have other "simple" assignments hanging over my head that I know will take me equally as long, but I'm going to keep pressing on and I'm GOING to learn.

I'd be interested in knowing who all reads my blog so email me or drop me a line on facebook!

In His grip,
Courtney Lynn